Day 11- My Transformation:)

Day 11

I was just looking at a picture from twenty years ago and I was remembering where I was at that time in my life.  I was a dancer and this particular picture was from a music video shoot.  I was probably in the best shape of my life (from the outside) and yet when I look back, I see such a sad, insecure, vulnerable, young girl.  It was some of the darkest periods in my life.  Physically, I was struggling with eating disorders.  I would starve myself or work out all day to make sure I was skinny.  My diet consisted of coffee and cigarettes.  Everything I valued was about how I looked and what people thought of me.  I remember being at this video shoot and feeling like I was the fattest, ugliest person there amongst all the beautiful, talented individuals I was working with.

So here I am, twenty years later.  I am finally content with my body.  I don’t have an un-realistic view of what I think I should look like.  It is what it is!  I have three amazing, beautiful, healthy children that I adore and I have the stretch marks to prove it!  My beauty doesn’t come from the outside appearance but out of a content, pure, secure relationship with God and having positive influences in my life.  I definitely still struggle with body dysmorphia, but I try to take captive every thought.  I now have the tools not to fall in to the trap of self- centeredness and anxiety.  I am very grateful!  It’s not always easy but I try my darndest!!!

One of the items on my bucket list was to be able to teach a health and fitness class.  I wanted to do it by age forty. Health and fitness had always been a passion of mine and after practicing yoga for the last few years, it really helped me to develop awareness and surrender to my body and I really wanted to share that.  I was sick of the fad diets, the quick fix empty promises of the latest trend, the plastic surgery, and the focus on the external instead of really dealing with what’s inside.

So, I started a Bootcamp class for some of my girlfriends who recently had babies and I figured, I would be working out anyway, I’d just include them.  I thought I would have three or four people maximum come out to join.  My first class I had twelve women show up!  The next class, sixteen women showed up!!!  I was so encouraged and scared at the same time!  Right now, I have the honor of having classes at four locations and have been able to meet amazing women who blow me away everyday by their courage and love.   I am having a blast working with these amazing, strong, beautiful, spiritual women.  It’s truly a privilege to be friends with a lot of them.  What I do resonates with these women because I think we’re all sick of being bombarded by size zero models and celebrity moms who fit in their jeans as soon as they give birth!  We are normal women just trying to make it happen and squeeze in a workout when we can.  The message is important.  We are beautiful creatures.  Wonderfully and fearfully made!  We need to be reminded!  As women, we need to encourage each other instead of sizing each other up.  We’re on the same team here.  It’s not a competition.

 

I always wanted to be pretty and skinny.  It seemed like that was my goal in life as a young woman.  Now, that I’m over forty I feel pretty good about my body, my strength, and my curves.  I’m grateful I can still have the energy to take dance and fitness classes and on a good day, stand on my head!!

My classes are not about just losing weight but about dealing with what’s inside.  We’re also going to re-train our minds about our love affair with food and develop discipline for fitness!  Here are my before and after pictures.  Even though I have never been over twenty pounds overweight, it was still a huge challenge to overcome the mental game.  It all starts with a decision and a willingness to try.  Then it’s taking action everyday and not make excuses!  I help empower women re-invent themselves.  I train women to learn how to love the skin they’re in.  I love what I do and I’m honored to be in this journey with you.

 

 

 

 

Day 10 of April Challenge!

 

Day 10

I was hoping my day would be a little more productive today.  Instead, I was distracted by every shiny object and was pulled in many different directions.  I struggle with being a procrastinator.  It’s really something I hate about myself.  Nothing makes me more productive than the last minute!  LOL!  Arghhhh…..I am really trying to overcome this.  Somehow, I do get things done and will make it happen!  I just wish I was more of the tortoise than the hare.  Slow and steady wins the race, right!?  I will overcome this weakness!  This is something I really want to go after in my character.  I’ll start tomorrow;))) LOL!!!  How do you overcome procrastination????

1) Yoga- Another chance to find your center.  Take some time to meditate today.  Make it part of your daily practice to find some quiet time and clear your hard drive:)  The real work starts within. Breathe in and breathe out:))))

Meditate on this.  This is powerful and beautifully said….

 

2) Mantra- Perseverance!

Perseverance is the complete antithesis of procrastination.  Quitting is easy, perseverance takes blood, sweat, and tears!  I know that in order for me to overcome my procrastination I have to take ACTION.  It doesn’t have to be a HUGE step but I must take baby steps and make progress.  Make a decision to take action everyday towards your goal.  Do not quit!!!

 

Please “like” us if you haven’t already:)))  I will host my next challenge group in June.  In the next couple of months, I will be moving and healing.  Thanks for your support, loyalty, and encouragement.  It means a lot!!!

Love you guys and I’m rooting for you:)))) XOXO!!!

Day 9 of April Challenge!

Day 9

Well, life is a whirlwind right now.  It’s going at lightning speed and I’m working hard to intentionally stay in the moment.  There are a lot of great things happening and there are also lots of great challenges that we didn’t see coming.  Life is like that right!?  We always want to get all our ducks in a row and for some reason, it just never lines up.  I used to get really anxious and worried about plans not working out my way.  Today, I will remember to breathe and count my blessings.  No one ever said things were going to work out perfectly.  All I know is that some how, some way, it will work out:)))

1) Upper Body Day- Are you ready to get those arms strong for the task!?  Don’t be afraid of weights.  Don’t worry, you won’t bulk up. It’s time for tank top arms and bikini weather is right around the corner.  What are you waiting for!?  If you have an exercise ball, use it!:))))

 

2) Mantra- You are Stronger than you Think!

Strength comes in many forms.  Sometimes you don’t realize how strong you are until you overcome some great hurdle.  Sometimes, you wonder if you could make it through a tough season of life, then when you do you’re stronger for it.  Don’t underestimate your strength, your determination, your perseverance, and your willingness to push through.  Initially, you won’t feel so strong.  You might even feel totally weak and useless.  Unbeknownst to you, people are watching you and are looking at your example.  It’s a high calling but it’s true.  You are strong and you will continue to get stronger as long as you don’t give up!

Please “like” us if you haven’t already:)))  I will host my next challenge group in June.  In the next couple of months, I will be moving and healing.  Thanks for your support, loyalty, and encouragement.  It means a lot!!!

Love you guys and I’m rooting for you:)))) XOXO!!!

Day 4 of April Challenge!

Day 4

It’s been a few days since I’ve written.  I’m giving myself permission to chill and listen to my body. Right now I should be sleeping but I couldn’t sleep.  I had a rough day today. In case you didn’t hear the news, we miscarried a while back.  I’m doing OK.  I was resolved with the outcome and pretty much just went on with life.  Business as usual. I’ve had spurts of sadness but I’ve been too busy to feel. Today I went to Target and walked by all the baby clothes and toys.  I watched the excited, expectant moms shopping with anticipation.  It seems like everywhere I go, everyone is pregnant.  It’s just a constant reminder that I am not.  It’s easy for me to just not think about it and go about my busy life.  My life is super busy right now. We’re in the middle of a HUGE move out of state and I have a lot on my plate.  I had to give myself permission to grieve and to be OK with being sad.  It’s actually easier to check out, numb out, and not deal.  In my fitness classes, I teach my clients to be in the moment.  I teach them not to be afraid of emotions, hard challenging moves, and to be open to the challenge. Just like in life, we are sometimes thrown a curve ball.  Sometimes, we don’t know why things happen.  I know for me, I can intellectualize it and just give myself a pep talk.  “It’s OK, everything happens for a reason.”  “God is in control.”  “It’s just not meant to be.”  Even though it may be true, it can divert my true feelings and make it harder for me to be in touch.  It’s OK to be sad.  It’s OK to be sorrowful.  It’s OK to be human.

1) YOGA DAY- How fitting that today is Yoga day.  Yoga really helps me to see the parallels of real life and my practice on the mat.  Yoga helps me to hear the chatter in my mind and as I hold poses, I can slowly calm the chatter and focus on the NOW.   If I’m all over the place in my mind, I’m all over the place on my mat.  It’s a great challenge mentally and of course physically.  I have to surrender to where I’m at physically.  I can’t fake it or force it.  I have to just BE.  That’s the beauty of Yoga.  You are forced to be your authentic self even if you’re falling all over the mat.  You can’t have ego in yoga.  LOL!  Another beautiful thing in Yoga is there is no judgment.  You accept where you’re at with no judgment.  Some days you feel stronger than others.  It’s OK.  I need to take some yoga today to learn some lessons on being present and being in the moment.  I hope you can join me.  Peace:)))

 

2) Mantra- Love is Patient

My mantra is simple today.  I need to be patient with myself.  To be honest, the day after my miscarriage, I taught a high intensity fitness class.  My doctor was not happy with me.  She told me I needed to rest and let my body heal.  In my mind, I was ready to go after my normal fitness regimen and go full out.  I felt good, I had energy.  I was in a hurry to get back in to tip top shape.  Why?  What’s the hurry?  I had to ask myself these question.  I think for me, it gave me some kind of comfort to get back on a schedule and take my mind off of the loss.  I listened to my doctor and took it easy for the next couple of weeks.  I have to constantly remind myself that I’m not in a race, I’m not in a hurry, and it’s OK to take some time to recuperate.  If I’m not patient with myself, how can I be patient with others.  In 1 Corinthians 13:4 It says, “Love is patient”….that’s all I have to remember.

So I ask for your patience as I’m going through this time in my life.  I may not blog daily but I’m always available on Facebook.  Please “like” us if you haven’t already:)))  I will host my next challenge group in June.  In the next couple of months, I will be moving and healing.  Thanks for your support, loyalty, and encouragement.  It means a lot!!!

Love you guys and I’m rooting for you:)))) XOXO!!!

Day 28 of Spring Clean Challenge!!!

Day 28!

I hope you guys had a great weekend and if you had way too many peeps or chocolate eggs, well shake it off and make today a new day!  One of our sayings at Bootcamp Barre is, “Champions have a short memory!”  Don’t dwell on what you cannot control.  Let’s move on shall we!?!?

 

 

 

 

1) Monday- Stretch, Cardio and Leg Day!
Check out Carrie Underwood’s leg exercises.  She has some great tips!!!
Read article here:)))

 

 

2) Binge Recovery!  If you had a rough weekend eating way too much of mom’s home cooking then follow this great advice!

 

3) Mantra for the Day!- I CAN!
During this challenge we’ve learned that we must love ourselves unconditionally, be grateful, not be jealous, not be greedy, not whine, and really work hard on purification not just our diets but most importantly, our hearts.  So today we’re going to talk about a word that you MUST ban from your vocabulary if you are going to be successful.  This word is, “I can’t!”  If you think you can’t, then you’ve already lost.  Success is a mental game.  If you believe that you can, you will!!!  We don’t allow this word in our home.  It’s considered a bad word.  Our speech determines what we will do. If you start off with saying “you can’t” then you’ve already lost the battle.  You can definitely do it and I believe in you. Don’t listen to the negative people in your life that will tell you, “you can’t!”  Surround yourself with people that will support you and encourage you.  Stick around and you will find that there truly are people who genuinely want you to succeed.

Love you guys and I’m rooting for you!!! XOXO:)