Well, I went to the Doctor and sadly I had a miscarriage over the weekend. We were not very far along. Initially, we thought we were already at 12 weeks but the ultrasound only showed 6 weeks. I’m grateful that I didn’t experience a lot of pain. I’m doing well and getting my energy back. Thank you for all the well wishes and enthusiasm for my pregnancy. Unfortunately, it’s not meant to be right now. I have never had a miscarriage and it definitely helps me to have more compassion on others. I’m thankful to be surrounded by such amazing friends and family. I feel very blessed.
1. Tuesday- Cardio day. Go for a walk, run, hike, bike ride, swim, dance class, etc….
Whatever you end up doing, just move that booty!!!:))))
3. Mantra for the day: Surrender
Surrender and faith go hand in hand. Being a Christian, it’s a given that I want God’s will for my life. I’ve been living my life by faith. The kind of faith that makes my knees shake and puts knots in my belly. I love to conquer my fears and do crazy things that I would never do. Now, my prayers have been, “God let me walk through every door you want me to walk through and close every door that I’m not supposed to walk through.” Walking indicates ACTION! I will keep moving until the door shuts. Then I will move again in another direction until it’s clear that I need to go another way. It has been such an amazing ride. It gives me such security and I don’t have to second guess myself because I truly trust that God is leading my life. So, even with going through a devastating miscarriage, I truly feel surrendered to God’s will and I feel a lot of peace. I think it’s a blessing to be able to relate and comfort another person who has gone through the same experience. I know I’ve been comforted by people who have wished me well and have been through it too. Surrender is a beautiful thing. It totally takes the pressure off of trying to be in control of everything. I did that for a long time and believe me, I do not want to go back to that! Thanks for letting me vent. I think it helps to just get it out. I’m feeling good physically. Maybe it will hit me later but I’m not sad. I’m resolved that this is how it’s supposed to be. I will focus on what I do have and that’s a loving, amazing, encouraging, supportive, husband and three healthy, vibrant, funny, smart, loving kids. I am surrounded by people who love me. I am truly blessed. I am humbled and amazed by the blessings. Thank you:))))
Love you guys and I’m rooting for you!!! XOXO:)))